Falling in and out of love

There's  no stranger feeling than being in love. It can make you feel like you're floating on air (when everything is going well) or it can make you feel like absolute crap. My dad always said the man that was worth my tears wouldn't make me cry. Sorry daddy but men can't help but make us women cry. It's in their DNA or something.

My Dad was full of little words of wisdom and always knew what to say in a crisis especially if there was a bloke involved. I could ring him up and he'd just know what to say to make his little girl feel better. I'm the youngest of 4 girls and I'm still a proper daddy's girl even though he passed away 4 years ago.

Anyway I was talking about love, my father problems are another blog altogether!
Love is a many splendid thing (or so the famous song would have us believe). I fell in love at the tender age of 17, my boyfriend (as he was then) was funny, caring, handsome everything a girl could want in a man. He is older than me by about 6 years but age is a number right? He was perfect, my parents approved, my family approved (at the time) and my life was complete.

Fast forward a couple of years, I'm living in my own flat (my parents had abandoned their youngest child and her life of being a layabout student to move to France. I had to get a job!!!) I'm still with this bloke, happy and in love. We became engaged, bought a house and got married (how very grown up) by the time we got married I was 23, he was 29. Now here's where I should say that we lived happily ever after and had a bunch of children and we're going to grow old together....sorry kids sometimes life is crap and doesn't work out like you planned.

One day not too long ago I woke up with the dawning realisation I might not be in love with my husband anymore. What do you do in that situation? There is no manual for women on how to cope when you're no longer in love and your marriage falls apart 16 months after the happiest day of your life. I wish there was...I might write one. Its an impossible situation to be in, I wanted to make it work without letting him know I was having doubts about our marriage. Anyway we argued constantly for about a month, I wanted to go out on a weekend and he wanted to stay in....all day. We didn't have much money but what we did could have stretched to a day out somewhere. So we argue about everything and one day I scream at him that I don't love him (not the nicest thing I've ever done) and I want to leave. Instead of acting like the adults we are and talking, we ignored the problem and tried to get on. This lasted another month (more arguments) until eventually one day I left (I can't go into details but it involved someone else)

2 months later I'm here. In a house share at 24, going through a divorce, wondering where my life went wrong. My family and friends have been amazing. my ex has been amazing and we're trying to be friends. Don't get me wrong my life is in no way easier now I'm single but I'm happier and finally after 8 years realising who I am.

So boys and girls if you're in love I hope it lasts forever for you but don't think it's your fault if it doesn't. Life moves on, people change, grow, evolve and sometimes your partner doesn't grow with you. It sucks but it makes you stronger, believe me.

The Beginning

So I've decided to start writing a blog, I've always wanted to and now seems like a pretty good time to start as I have loads of free time on my hands!

A little introduction I'm Gina Meehan, 24 (nearly 25) living in a house share in a small town called Manchester! I'm currently going through the most stressful period in my life but more on that later.

This blog will be about my general life but also will give people a little bit of advice on how to cope in the weird situations you might find yourself in (as I regularly do). My friends say my life is like Hollyoaks but without the murder, and ridiculously small clothes in the depths of Winter.

So let's crack on!!